It’s surreal to think that it will be a year since the purple one passed away and it’s hard for me to not think of him daily, especially in the month of April. I anticipated Mayte Garcia’s book like many fans of his royal badness and read it searching for answers to the gaps of questions I had. I found her book was done very well and it gave me great insight to some of the things I wondered and thought during his period as the symbol. I also found a lot of similarities to how he romanced her and other women during this time to how he romanced me. Prince was old school cool and really would use the telephone a lot to romance a girl.
I am now happy I listened to my intuition and wrote my memoir, “The Day It Snowed In April.” It was also done out of love and to pay tribute to that romantic beautiful time I shared with him when we both were so young and innocent. I think fans can see Prince was a complicated soul to figure out and part of the mysteriousness was created by him; so that his world would operate the way he wanted it to. As Mayte stated in her book, it was known that a girl was either leaving Minneapolis or staying and those gestures of handshakes he would give a girl was noted to mean he liked her.
Prince always had multiple women in his life and most of them were protégé’s he was grooming, as this was the only way you could fit into his world. I recognized this immediately and he tried to fit me into his world as a protégé, but I didn’t want that. I wanted to be my own person with my own merits and my own career and not be in his shadow or his creation. And there was no way I would want to live in Minneapolis as I could never get use to the winters in Chicago!
Reading Mayte’s book gave me insight to how it would have been for me had I said yes to the “Diamonds and Pearls” video. As much as I wanted to work with Prince the timing was not right and I couldn’t do that video because my marriage was falling apart at that time and as always I put love before career. Prince will always be an enigma to many people and will be studied and talked about for years to come. I’m happy Mayte is at peace with sharing aspects of the pain and sorrow they endured over the loss of their children. And I believe she was indeed the love of his life. I think he pushed her away knowing he was the flawed one and that she still had a chance to be a mother someday. Like most romances he had, the women he wooed loved him dearly because he wanted them to love only him. He was possessive and extremely jealous, but eventually they would all leave him.
I know now he only wanted the best for me and I was actually spared by not working with him because my memories are all so wonderful and beautiful. I came to Hollywood a Playboy Playmate dating the hottest rock star that we have ever seen! There was nothing to top that and for him he knew he could not possess me, so there was no choice but to show me only the good side of him. Many of Prince’s women were in Playboy, Vanity, Carmen Electra, Kim Basinger, Anna Fantastic, but I was introduced to Prince by Playboy and I think he knew that would pose a problem because girls who pose for Playboy end up with may opportunities and options from other powerful men, rock stars, movie stars etc.
I’m sure the fact that Mayte ended up engaged to Tommy Lee of all people only added to his ongoing nightmare that he could not possess her any longer either. As usual, Prince struggled with his own demons and his own values of what was good or bad and he created his world to be exactly the way he wanted it to be. I also created and manifested my world to be the way I felt it should be for me. I think Prince knew when I wrote, “To be loved and in love having a comfortable life and my own family” on my Playmate data sheet that I wanted marriage and family first and foremost. I think that’s why he mentioned he was married to music so often. He knew what the women in his life wanted and most wanted fame and fortune.
When he found his soul mate in Mayte he found his true love, but the tragedy of not having a child with her was something he couldn’t get over and so he had to push her away and I think he did that out of his love for her. I wondered why he married so quickly after the greatest love he ever had and I think it was to make her move on from him. He was being unselfish by pushing her away from him because he knew she could bare children just not his children. I hope many friends, fans and former lovers are now at peace with his death. I’m sure more insightful stories will be shared over time and this is why I wrote out mine in “The Day It Snowed In April.” I didn’t want to forget him and that unique magical time we shared. I am happy, healthy and have a daily reminder of him in my tiny little teacup rescue that I named after him. I am so grateful to have found my soul mate and have a wonderful marriage, so I know the choices I made long ago led me to this moment in time.
I am happy I can now listen to his music and talk about him without crying. I have reconnected with many people from the Revolution and friends who knew him over the past year. I have shared my story for everyone to know him the way I knew him and I look forward to hearing about stories I have yet to learn.